furious,.

the silence is killin me. yet is really isnt silence. its a low humming of machinery as it cranks and cackles in this small space. cant hardly take it anymore. ready to go absolutely crazy. am going crazy. cant actually do the things i supposed to. cant focus. cant find motivation. all the thoughts in my head are louder than ever. i almost cant take it. i need to zen and focus. cant focus. falling asleep. cant even get a cup of coffee. cant do anything paralyzed in a trance of silence a nd noise clashing together. its unbearable. torture toa  soul like me. have nothing to do. cant do it. freaking out. need to focus. aurgh going in circles cant think. cant feel anytmore. people are the last thing i need to see. im freaking annoyed at life about now. you cant take this away from me. i needs it all the time. all the time.  this silence of my thoughts is dkilling me just as much. coz my voices gett ired of each other after a while and simmer down then the humm of the machines just intimidates me savagely. like a mouse in a cage i cant get out i cant do anything. tell me why you are doing this what did i ever do to you.

they've taken my music away from me. how dare they. how can they. some head guy just walks in a says no more music or you fail your mystery shops and your inspections even if you had a good score. like how the fuck is one supposed to find motivation in an environment like that. i just couldnt do it. worst 8 hours of my entire life. and my techno wouldnt to the same hing as having my music. like what did i do to deserve that. to me. the music helps me work and i hope they fuckking got the point. that im just tired of this. you dont take that one thing away from me. anything i can handle. no smoke breaks or more work. but take my music i will nto work i will nto doing a thing. i cant find the motivation to. not at all. i refuse. i hope you get it petro. or ima quit on you and then what are you gunna do. nothin coz you cant. you fail petro for keeping your employees happy and centent. this isnt contentment this is a lash out and a revloution! i dislike  your decisions reverse them for everyone involved becasue im not the only one here who hates this. everyone dose. it isnt fair. >.<