my head is filled. with untamed thoughts
and weird complexions
something not making sense.
things are going off track
im vunerable and helpless
i want to speak up.
but i cant hear my own self
im here. but am i really
i get lost in translation
between good and eveil arguing around my skull
i had some weird experiences that last few nights.
satuirday night. they were laughing at me for a while
last ngiht they gathered to chat around me
sarcasticlly as if i couldnt hear them
now theres two people.
one guy still and i heard a females voice.
i heard them conversing. very low
very quiet.
i didnt want to hear them
i wished they werent there.
a few times they shouted.
and i turned around scared
still conversing in my head.
but it feels like
there standing rght behind me
i wish i copuld tell someone
who wouldnt judge me
or turn me into the psychotic hospital
i couldnt handle it there.
they would restrain me
they would make me take pills
try adn make me better
am ui really sick>? or can i pull this one off
being psychotic in this world
isnt a great trait to have.
not even being mental is.
i could try and look normal.
am i really normal. or will someone
figure this out
i cant hold this secret to close to me
or its feared and predicted that i might
not make it out very well
i hate shrink i hate doctors.
i hate pills i hate meds
i need to just be normal
but thats so boring.
i dont mind these voices in my head.
they only scare me only when they start coming arounda gain.
if they leave like they had been
im usualy fine.
but now that they are filing back into my spac
i just need to focus on my company.
my little friend is coming back
hes settling in
was on vacation for a bit i suppose.
now i need to make room
hopefuly he will be nice.
maybe he wont.
ill take action.
i bring him down.
i cant remember what made him go away last
just the mindset.
how i loved my free life and did everything
i can get back to that.
i can make it like that again
find peace within myself again
i am older
more experienced
but i am leaving this place
and going to a new one
