someones crushin

shes stuck. in her head connected to mine. she sits and waits and i maintain my quiet complexity. staring off to space, through my periferals i can see her. stare at me for just more than the tsandard blink. she catches herself. looks back to where im looking. but im watching her. i notice only her. the every movement. the every shadow. wondering, cautiously. we wander through the zig zag of complexity and secrecy slowly building up more courage everyday. mmmm she kissed me that night. one of the best ones i ever had. man now thats two pretty sweet ass kisses now. and now she wants to rip my clothes off every time she sees me. a turn on. i think so. theres so many things i could say to that. i have her wrapped around my finger so gently and cautiously. i have to keep my steady posture though . this is a secret mission. just the two of us. wandering aimlessly through the path. i have no clue whats going on. and she sure as hell dosent have the first clue. eve ry thing is new to her. everythign is the first time all over again. i need to make it memorable. theres pressure there. just slightly. what was my first time with a chick like. did i hate it. was it gentle. was it crazy. i want to make her head spin.; catch her by surprise. but coast in gently and softly like it was so natural. it needs to feel real. it needs to take time. i cant spook her. this is brand new territory for me as well. its like were in a dark room just us and we have no idea waht to do or say. im stuck now. i dont wnt to go tooo far ahead. in fear she oculd fall for me. or worse. i could fall for her. that would be bad especially when im trying to keep it low key and personal yet distanced at the same time. but her taste dosent escape me. stuck there on repeat. hmm. think. i need to move out and on. i need to do my own thing. this isnt even a fling its just an adventure lets say. just something fun along the way. dont get in to deep. you cant afford that. just have some fun and relax. take it easy. she loves the attention and fuck yah you do. too. this weekend will be tricky. its our combined birthdays. we cant seem to keep hands off each other too long after we had a few drinks or two. or a toke and a half. heres the sticky side. . the ex gf will be there. its gonna be hard shit. i dont want to turn the exon any more than i want to turn her on. an the ex will be after me. and her bf will be after her and its gonna be one big fuck up. but i know i got her wrapped around me. i got her in tight. she wants me. she wants to rape me for god sakes. shes the one who has the crush on more than i ever thought origniall.y