Today is a day of Testing and PErsistence. OVer the summer i had made plans to meet a good friend of mine for a hour or two in a local coffee shop. No strings attached, nothing seemed to go wrong, until i was left standing in that coffee shop with no avail of this person showing up. Being stood up is one of the things thats hurts the most after months and months of talking, learning, sharing, laughing and bonding. Why did i even give her a second chance, im not sure, maybe it was a fault of the heart. or not. But today 5 months after the inital meeting, after a change of progress and a thought od the heart, hopefully things wont be blown up in my face once again, but one can only hope i am destined to meet her underneath the rollercoatser where she said she had the moment of truth the last time we, officially met. hopefully the other intruder wont bother showing up, cuz i need her to know it just isnt worth it, you have the whole weekend to hang with your little love of your life, while me on the other hand onyl has a few named hours, of which im sure your creepin around anyways. so i leave this only to fatem the feelings ion my stomach are slightly uneasy but again i put my trust in her so maybe she can come thru maybe she can really show me whats important in life, being controlle by a bastard, or following her own heart. we are bound to find out. until next time

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