this can has been opened. and itn not done.
the Ex gf will find out today. by the intrest herself.
face to face. one on one. single handedly.
what will this bring
what will this create. will it fuck up
will it not matter. maybe she will laugh.
maybe she will laugh at me..? hmm
tough situation i dont know waht to do with.
confusion. helplessness.
just hanging here waiting for a answer
another move. another motive.
im happy its going down tonite.
good as night as ever. 4 days away. from the party
now the coast is clear.
maybe she will float a little closer to me
i would love that. id hold her touch her. feel her. touchy feely
i told her straight up
just tell her. you want to . i knew it was going down to nite.
i had a feeling all day.
and here we go. only about 3 hours till i figure out
how this bomb will blow up.
will it even blow up?
i can only sit pace wait.
day by day. minuet by minuet.
agony. regret. nervousness. all combined into one.
this is a grenade. after heather knows its about time every one knew.
tonights actions will depict whats going down for real on saturday.
will i have a stand in. will i have to stand in for myself.
will it be awkward. will it be the best ever.
i can only throw the dice and wait for them to land.
here i go .
