thought it was over.

she bit my neck last night. not hard enough. but i felt it. stuck in my mind all night. dont know how to take it i was teasing her too. i deserved it. but she did it all slow. and let me kiss her after. omg.bit my lip headspace all fuzz. fuck. thought it was like clsing. but no she will prolly always have a crush on me. i dont get why she maes me feel all weird inside. like. no. maybe im addicted to that,. miss it. too possibly. i got to ask my friends for hugs now. dont got the unlimited thing no more. wont get many more after i leave this city. dont really know many people. but its a town and thereas that 4.20 dude. whos chillaxan. :] ill miss her.  really try and be in the middle of every moment ig et . might not get it for a while. i wont be looking fo rno girlfriend anytime soon. just for my own sake and well being. need to find that independance that once made me who i am.  need to trip stumble and fal a few times before i can really get back up and go at it. im almost ther.e pretty strong enough. getting better each day. had a bad streak for a while. got depressive. lost. unfocused. then it all settle din nicely. gently. everything will be easy and simple 420 rent due 12.10 2010 lol. easy . nothing to it. everything is perfect. just keep smiling.