B00M punch in the face

just booked my plane ticket.  this week has been a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts flying by. and reality standing me down. time to make this move. to place this jump. one foot in front of the other. easy now. just take it easy. gentle. nothing frantic. dont get worked up. remember the last two times i tried. kinda. didnt really have a plan then. kind of got a plan now. but im not really telling anyone i dont know if i know if i have an idea of what i am actually doing. so. i know i do. i just got to face it. im like hoovering. but everday closer im like turning more towards facing it. next thing i know im prolly going to find myself travelling down the QE2 face to face. with it. eye to eye. palmsa re sweaty. head feels stuffy. with thinking ness. cant really do it straight. i really need to sleep i had a 12 hour day at work . it was great. it really wasnt. but i tried.