pressure has risen
leaning on my own self and own
here its just a pile of mountians
between me and the ocean.
i need that coast.
i need to getout of here alive
once and for all. i cant get caught on
i need to focus
i need to relate. i
i need to just go
its hard now.
i dont know why i think shit
i dont know why i hear shit
i just need to do shit
i m just really glad im not actually seeing shit yet.
i really hope i dont get to that that point
that would be the fuck up
its in my head now
im on my own her.e
nobody really gets me
to be the real me
i need to focus
not on anyone else but me
i need to be selfish
i need to not be a nice guy for a while
i need to be here for me
really get into what i want and not what other people want
from me
its time to disconnect from
this realtiy and focus on myself for a long time
i cant care about other people anymore
they cared about me
but i havent
i need to just do it for me
not for nobody else
get back to that mindset i lost a while ago
fuzzy and faded.
i cant
i need to forget
i need to not be her.e
i need to leave.
gtfo. never come back
i cant come back this place. is. .
its snowing
im really glad it didnt snow on my birthday or party
fuck saturday. it.
i dont even know waht happened.
ugh. i hate this.
