come on. lets get outta her.e. lets get lost. lets fly away. to the ocean. over the moutians. willd like a breeze! where ever i can go and however far i can go. ill do anything to get there. and i might do more to get there soone.r i wann pack up. and move. just gtfo. asap. only faster. im so ready for change. im so done. i kno it. im finished here in edmonton. i've worn it out. i need a new change a fresh face. something new to chew on. to take over. to indulge in. i just need it. this whole petro crap is just plain crap. not doing me anything. not gonna do me anything. i gotta get up and get out. i wanna get into music so dam straight i should get into music. just do whatever. anything that includes or falls under the musical tab. just get into it. a gas station dose nothing and i have proven that. i have tried to make money but it dosent happen. my shitty apartment takes whatever i got for a cheque then my cats then my food. then all those extra things. liek internet. which i need. t.v a phone? yah. its nuts. there goes my cheque and then some because i smoke copeious amounts of weed just to deal with my shiity make of a life which is ridiculus in the sense i am a high school graduate. i can do more than what ever the fuck i doing now. the same f**damn thing iw as doing a year ago. likeWAKE th Fukkk up! gtet real and get on. lets go the train to real life is departing in 6 months.
by that is i have made this solid decision and will do quite anything that needs to be done to lift off and get the fuck out of this shit hole of a life i call real. yah time to grow up and make me a person.. time to get real and keep my head up and to be human. and real. and everythig that needs to be to get there. i bet in 10 years i can be making the big bucks somehow. someway. i kno more when i get ther. i so for real . 6 months or less. my lease here expires in october. my BDAY gift to my self. moving to the coast to make my life.
and i kno its gona b expensive and theres gonna be ties to cut and things to go with out of for a while. and gotta tough it out for however long its gotta take till i figure it out. and learn my ropes and then ride it all the way!! but we all start out at the end. to make it real and we start out busted and bruised and bloom into something fantasticand i kno it can get long and straining but someday my world is gonna change and i dont necissarliy gotta bee in the. spotlight. the subshawdows are great. as long as i make an impact. oh im so excited. this is for real
this is exactly i needed to do. and wanted to do like 2 years ago this time. just get up and leave but this timei got back up and a longer plan but support and back up and reliablity and a person to fall against in times as hard as it could be or as easy as it sounds to be. i got a smart person on my end. who has the brain capacity i cant carry. and someone who i love so much and loves me back ten times more. its complete bliss. unexplainable. unbeliveable but so freakin real and honest and supreme.
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and this is it for them hard drugs. i mean if im moving it all about new persona dn new roots and new beginnings and new everything. and drugs will not be included. no matter how much i want them. it wont happen. this is time to get invloved. in real worldness and become human. like said. i mean a bit of b.c bud wont hurt in the least. but no e, k, coke, or anything of the like, maybe i could stop smoking too. everything done and out by that time. hence the 6 months. just do it. find some mushrooms to do.
i think e is done
pretty sure k is kicked
drinking is fun but so annoying.
just a few last partys. to make sure.
who wants to do coke *thumbs down*
but its all gonna be out. and over. and allll my ties will be fixed. hopefully i can look into my visa. pay some of it off all while saving hardcore. or trying too. means working nights over summer. blast it. im gettin 13 an hour. pullin 15,00 a cheque. times that by 2. and then by 12 minus ing 800 for monthly rent. = apporxx. 4,000 by the time october is up. plus about 800 to that and final cheques. on top. we might have a good 68,000 to work with by october comes along. but of course we always gotta mius out living expenses for the present. liek a cut of about 350 a month. alone to support a steady life but could go down. but yah./ if im correct. well have maybe 4,000 dollars in the bank and a chunk of my visa paid off. so i can go there clean slated?>>
oh so very exciting. im gonna go dream about it. now!
