so.....
i cant wait for my interview tommorrow for PLAY night club. i really hope i get this job. something ive been looking forward to all week...
http://www.playnightclub.ca/
will check back tommorrow for more info
Saturday, September 13
Thursday, September 11
so he res something you hadn't noticed. and that just noticed now, and as i sit here waiting for my stupid slow and lame computer boot up.
Today i look like a boy. Completely Cross Dressed in every way. Every single article of clothing upon my body is either a men's size or made for a man. HA not that i care. honestly. I enjoy my male appearance, but i also do quite enjoy my female body. Yeah okay my little lumps on my chest are kinda a nuisance.
The one thing i hate though about day to day living, is going into a public washroom. OR getting asked, or even the blatant cold hard stares when some one such as me walks into a Women's washroom, fully knowing its correct. It gets annoying when other people correct themselves to make room for me. So I've decided i dislike public washrooms and prefer Gender Neutral Washrooms.
And ON that subject. Who's to say i HAVE to look like a woman. i really don't mind how i look. i actually love how i look. i cut off my hawk last night in preperation of my upcoming job interviews cuz obviously not many employers enjoy long orange hair...*rolls eyes* Sure i represent a male in everyday life, the only difference between me and a biologically correct are those two annoying bumps on my chest.
I look outside and see the beautiful women with long brown hair, trim fit bodies and curves that could knock a sock off, when me myself and perfectly content with what i have and where its going. i love my short croppped hair and cant wait for the back to grow out so i can spike that out to into a full sized frohawk and dye stripes of Red and blonde into my Black hair. It'll be great and hopefully just int iem for next summer considering its only September right now
I do Drag where its expected of me to impersonate the male persona on stage in a big and macho character as stereotype. Me personally. i aint stereyotyping. i respect men, to a certain point and always have..i also enjoy putting on a male persona for the form of pure entertainment. like come on. in my basement at the young age of 9 singing along and dancing around to Tal Bachman??
When i do that number it will be a flood of memories from ym past. Alot of the number i do have a reason or the actual song reminds me of someone or thing in my life that has impacted me. in one way or another. Songs like Supermans Dead, the lyrics about believeing something that you think is true but youk now its actually not. Those little mental moments we all have. Ha, some people think that Drag is all sexual and has to be directed towards the audience in a good way, and the best way to get a drunk audience is by being sexual. yes i can do it too, but i really dont feel as comfortable on stage when im grabbing my packing flashing smiles at the chicks as im trying to pick them up or somehting. it just dosent fit. i am passionate and ready abou tmy Drag and i love it and all the songs i choose have that exact same amount of passiona nd desire to reach out and let the audience see something else...if that make any sense. yerah i do some fun songs like ?Wild thing, or songs like thqt but overall. i have meaning and dedication...i just need more cheropgraphy...
I CANT FUCKING SPELL!!! ;sdkfjngviujscmNVGbzf
hotmail.com
so all in all, what is gender? based on your outward appearance and they way you act in dday to day activities? i sure dont. i really dont care..
i lost my thought
what are we talking abou tseeing the fact im more concerned with how i cant spell compared to actually writing something half intellegent...
Until later..
Rave
Today i look like a boy. Completely Cross Dressed in every way. Every single article of clothing upon my body is either a men's size or made for a man. HA not that i care. honestly. I enjoy my male appearance, but i also do quite enjoy my female body. Yeah okay my little lumps on my chest are kinda a nuisance.
The one thing i hate though about day to day living, is going into a public washroom. OR getting asked, or even the blatant cold hard stares when some one such as me walks into a Women's washroom, fully knowing its correct. It gets annoying when other people correct themselves to make room for me. So I've decided i dislike public washrooms and prefer Gender Neutral Washrooms.
And ON that subject. Who's to say i HAVE to look like a woman. i really don't mind how i look. i actually love how i look. i cut off my hawk last night in preperation of my upcoming job interviews cuz obviously not many employers enjoy long orange hair...*rolls eyes* Sure i represent a male in everyday life, the only difference between me and a biologically correct are those two annoying bumps on my chest.
I look outside and see the beautiful women with long brown hair, trim fit bodies and curves that could knock a sock off, when me myself and perfectly content with what i have and where its going. i love my short croppped hair and cant wait for the back to grow out so i can spike that out to into a full sized frohawk and dye stripes of Red and blonde into my Black hair. It'll be great and hopefully just int iem for next summer considering its only September right now
I do Drag where its expected of me to impersonate the male persona on stage in a big and macho character as stereotype. Me personally. i aint stereyotyping. i respect men, to a certain point and always have..i also enjoy putting on a male persona for the form of pure entertainment. like come on. in my basement at the young age of 9 singing along and dancing around to Tal Bachman??
When i do that number it will be a flood of memories from ym past. Alot of the number i do have a reason or the actual song reminds me of someone or thing in my life that has impacted me. in one way or another. Songs like Supermans Dead, the lyrics about believeing something that you think is true but youk now its actually not. Those little mental moments we all have. Ha, some people think that Drag is all sexual and has to be directed towards the audience in a good way, and the best way to get a drunk audience is by being sexual. yes i can do it too, but i really dont feel as comfortable on stage when im grabbing my packing flashing smiles at the chicks as im trying to pick them up or somehting. it just dosent fit. i am passionate and ready abou tmy Drag and i love it and all the songs i choose have that exact same amount of passiona nd desire to reach out and let the audience see something else...if that make any sense. yerah i do some fun songs like ?Wild thing, or songs like thqt but overall. i have meaning and dedication...i just need more cheropgraphy...
I CANT FUCKING SPELL!!! ;sdkfjngviujscmNVGbzf
hotmail.com
so all in all, what is gender? based on your outward appearance and they way you act in dday to day activities? i sure dont. i really dont care..
i lost my thought
what are we talking abou tseeing the fact im more concerned with how i cant spell compared to actually writing something half intellegent...
Until later..
Rave
Wednesday, September 10
DRAG COMPETITIONS
so in a few years ..i want to go to SAn Fransisco and see this....
or even be in it...!!
*le Gasp*
JAYDEN HAYNES
ooh ima Write my Biography right here....
Jayden haynes Started Draggin in the eArly Summer of 2008 performing often at his Club Buddies. He Regularly dose modern, upbeat serious songs that reflect his life and his time he spent where ever he treaded the streets. The Son of Miss Ashley Love and Elijah, he comes from a strong ancestory of Drag PErformers. His Mother is a Tried tested and true Queen, Famous for her upbeat and outgoing perfomances in Edmonton and His Father Alll the Way from Toronto Ontairo who was raised also by the Famous King Flare, Jayden shows excellence coming from suc a strong family . With Performances such as Korn, Red Jumpsuit, Social Code, Motion City Soundtrack and many new artists, Juayden shows passiona dn strong commitment towards his performances and obviously loves what he's doing. Becoming qwuite famous in the smal area of his hometown city he is finally here with the Big Boys in San Fransisco. Please Welcome to the Stage the One and only Mr. Jayden Haynes....
http://www.sfdragkingcontest.com/bios.html
or even be in it...!!
*le Gasp*
JAYDEN HAYNES
ooh ima Write my Biography right here....
Jayden haynes Started Draggin in the eArly Summer of 2008 performing often at his Club Buddies. He Regularly dose modern, upbeat serious songs that reflect his life and his time he spent where ever he treaded the streets. The Son of Miss Ashley Love and Elijah, he comes from a strong ancestory of Drag PErformers. His Mother is a Tried tested and true Queen, Famous for her upbeat and outgoing perfomances in Edmonton and His Father Alll the Way from Toronto Ontairo who was raised also by the Famous King Flare, Jayden shows excellence coming from suc a strong family . With Performances such as Korn, Red Jumpsuit, Social Code, Motion City Soundtrack and many new artists, Juayden shows passiona dn strong commitment towards his performances and obviously loves what he's doing. Becoming qwuite famous in the smal area of his hometown city he is finally here with the Big Boys in San Fransisco. Please Welcome to the Stage the One and only Mr. Jayden Haynes....
http://www.sfdragkingcontest.com/bios.html
NEXT SUMMER
JAYDENS ANNUAL PRIDE TOUR--:)
Edmonton Pride- HomeRoots Pride PArade and Drag Show w/Aftershow at Buddies
1st Weekend of June
Toronto Pride With Ayla Desiree Krystyna and Micchy and Friends
June 19th to 28th
Montreal Pride...?
End of July
VANCOUVER PRIDE!!!!
First Weekend of August
I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA GO!!!
Ottowa Capital Pride!!
End of August...kinda want to go as well but i dont want to go frm Vancouver all the way Back to Ottowa..but it would be cool
I needs to start saving now cuz i want to drive myself there and back wiht a car that i own and my own money
Goona be great
Tuesday, September 9
Hmm Up To Date
So where can i begin...How many days has it been since my last post. A couple i would say. Agree? Correctly accumulated my outstanding opinion and i am going to write another post.
So today is Tuesday i believe. And i am still sore from the WEekend. My Little blitz this weekend with my good friend Jeff. My Newfound Friend Jeff. So i was supposedly supposed to be at a Birthday. Which i went. To Lucky 13. And no one was there until later. So i walk arounda nd this little table of people were watching me froma distance. i turnarounda nd there chit chattring about my mohawk. Do you seriously not get out enought o see me around. Of course i am everywhere. but yeah i agree on a typically SAturday night i am at Buddies partying it up wiht CAss and all my other homosexual fanatics where i like to call home at Buddies. So yeah a few of my friends show up at Lucky and we decide to head off to the Strat. Me i had no idea what the strat was and it turned out its the cheap ass lounge hardly a bar at all in Strathcona Ols Hotel. LAME. i peace out and make my way towards New City.
Its funny how when you havent been to a certian place you once were popular at and you return without notice and its like nothing has changed. Same goes for okd friendships i guess. But yeah. i walk up to the cluba nd the regualr group of my friends are there of course smoking htere cigars and i walk up and its like i fit right back in. my place was never lost and its all good times. the tunes are rollin, the floor is rocking with awesome dancers. and me being much more experienced than when i first started felt even more at peace dancing my style on that floor and having so much fun.
So i manage to find some pot and i go smoke up and meet Shawn. Who later is killing it on te floor looking great as usual. soon enough i meet Jeff once again and were again killin git all over all ranked out having so much fun. soon enough its last call and were outside exchanging things in a small dark corner and finishing the rest of my joint. Next thing i know im being haulded out of the CLub being told were going o the Y!!!
YAYNESS!! i love the Y. Its an all night party with great music. WE manage to get in after we organize ourselves in the car. #am an were just begininng. the club is rocking all over agian and everythings a blur and my glowsticks are loking better than ever and im having so much fun. I love th e Y!! The tunes were great and the Bass was loud adn proud just the way its supposed to be. The water is flowing freely and were rocking. ew plan to leave at 7. so this is going on to 9 hours of compleate straight dancing!!
No wonder im so sore..cuz everyone knows that when i dance..i freaking dance like no tommorrow. So at around 7 we head back to the car and we chill out. WE decide we need to go get some food now that weer slightly coming down. Me..not so much..im still wired for sound and going striong..and would be form the next how many more hours. i keep losing things on myself and have this annoying complex about how dirty i loook with my two sweaters and Green Trip pants and White soiled tank top.
So im wandering around Downtown edmonton on a Sunday morning, tripping myself out and the rest of the world trying to act adn seem normal.
Everyhting is os much fun. i manage to think up of a typical short term goal and worlk towards it, in the mean time either a) forgetting the goal or b) getting distracted..good times.. i finally mamage to make it back to WEM and i call my GF to come hang with me cuz im going crazy confusing myself in my mind and getting psyched out by myslef....im such a klutz...
And i have never eaten so much in a day then i did that day..i had Breakfast, Lunch aAND dinner plus popcorn and snacks ...it ws crazy...but yeah its good im getting back into a regualr eating routine..maybe i can get back into a normal eating schedule. lol
Yeah and me and Alison went and Saw Indiana jones and we were supposed to meet Nona..but we couldnt find her and i almost walked into amirrior...cuz i thought the mirror was an exit..
lol
So yeah my Weekend was really good and i came home and slept for 17 whole hours...a good hard sleep that i needed..
i can t wait fo rthe next time!!!
peace
lovelys
So today is Tuesday i believe. And i am still sore from the WEekend. My Little blitz this weekend with my good friend Jeff. My Newfound Friend Jeff. So i was supposedly supposed to be at a Birthday. Which i went. To Lucky 13. And no one was there until later. So i walk arounda nd this little table of people were watching me froma distance. i turnarounda nd there chit chattring about my mohawk. Do you seriously not get out enought o see me around. Of course i am everywhere. but yeah i agree on a typically SAturday night i am at Buddies partying it up wiht CAss and all my other homosexual fanatics where i like to call home at Buddies. So yeah a few of my friends show up at Lucky and we decide to head off to the Strat. Me i had no idea what the strat was and it turned out its the cheap ass lounge hardly a bar at all in Strathcona Ols Hotel. LAME. i peace out and make my way towards New City.
Its funny how when you havent been to a certian place you once were popular at and you return without notice and its like nothing has changed. Same goes for okd friendships i guess. But yeah. i walk up to the cluba nd the regualr group of my friends are there of course smoking htere cigars and i walk up and its like i fit right back in. my place was never lost and its all good times. the tunes are rollin, the floor is rocking with awesome dancers. and me being much more experienced than when i first started felt even more at peace dancing my style on that floor and having so much fun.
So i manage to find some pot and i go smoke up and meet Shawn. Who later is killing it on te floor looking great as usual. soon enough i meet Jeff once again and were again killin git all over all ranked out having so much fun. soon enough its last call and were outside exchanging things in a small dark corner and finishing the rest of my joint. Next thing i know im being haulded out of the CLub being told were going o the Y!!!
YAYNESS!! i love the Y. Its an all night party with great music. WE manage to get in after we organize ourselves in the car. #am an were just begininng. the club is rocking all over agian and everythings a blur and my glowsticks are loking better than ever and im having so much fun. I love th e Y!! The tunes were great and the Bass was loud adn proud just the way its supposed to be. The water is flowing freely and were rocking. ew plan to leave at 7. so this is going on to 9 hours of compleate straight dancing!!
No wonder im so sore..cuz everyone knows that when i dance..i freaking dance like no tommorrow. So at around 7 we head back to the car and we chill out. WE decide we need to go get some food now that weer slightly coming down. Me..not so much..im still wired for sound and going striong..and would be form the next how many more hours. i keep losing things on myself and have this annoying complex about how dirty i loook with my two sweaters and Green Trip pants and White soiled tank top.
So im wandering around Downtown edmonton on a Sunday morning, tripping myself out and the rest of the world trying to act adn seem normal.
Everyhting is os much fun. i manage to think up of a typical short term goal and worlk towards it, in the mean time either a) forgetting the goal or b) getting distracted..good times.. i finally mamage to make it back to WEM and i call my GF to come hang with me cuz im going crazy confusing myself in my mind and getting psyched out by myslef....im such a klutz...
And i have never eaten so much in a day then i did that day..i had Breakfast, Lunch aAND dinner plus popcorn and snacks ...it ws crazy...but yeah its good im getting back into a regualr eating routine..maybe i can get back into a normal eating schedule. lol
Yeah and me and Alison went and Saw Indiana jones and we were supposed to meet Nona..but we couldnt find her and i almost walked into amirrior...cuz i thought the mirror was an exit..
lol
So yeah my Weekend was really good and i came home and slept for 17 whole hours...a good hard sleep that i needed..
i can t wait fo rthe next time!!!
peace
lovelys
Saturday, September 6
WTF
so i awaken this aftrnoon barely aware of my surroundings, hardly calculating anything sincere and correct. My thoughts were scattered as the sound of Alexisonfire rolls off the floor by my bed signalling me to awaken out of a groggy terrible nights sleep. I try to remember what day it is, where i am and why. I realize i am home in my bed, frezzing and its one of the WTFFFFFx 10000 mornings. ive only had so many of these in my lifetime, but the feelings i get arent good ones....
So during today i have tried to redirect my thoughts into a sincere train on the weird events that happened last night...
i remembered i was to Meet Cassie, already i have had one and half joints to myself and was about to do another one. I walked in the bar ond for someo dd reason people wnted to buy me drinks..so i obliged and they did...hence me getting drunker and drunker by the drink cuz after me not drinking for like 4 months...alcohol has a weird thing on me i guess...
So Cass is around and were dancing. my roomate was there as well dancing with some random. Dez was there i remembver clearly but for whatreason i have nbo idea what happened between 12 and 3...cuz i was pretty hamemred..not to mention the other thing i did to add to it all...plus music plus good friends and all this weird stuff...the only thing i remember at one time or another i was being mauled on the floor by some person kissing me...i dont know who it was, where it came from and why....!!
Why do i drink? to forget
I forget the majority of the events that happened last night..so i am clearly unable to determine wether it was a good or bad night..
i dont even want to know...im going o move on
J
So during today i have tried to redirect my thoughts into a sincere train on the weird events that happened last night...
i remembered i was to Meet Cassie, already i have had one and half joints to myself and was about to do another one. I walked in the bar ond for someo dd reason people wnted to buy me drinks..so i obliged and they did...hence me getting drunker and drunker by the drink cuz after me not drinking for like 4 months...alcohol has a weird thing on me i guess...
So Cass is around and were dancing. my roomate was there as well dancing with some random. Dez was there i remembver clearly but for whatreason i have nbo idea what happened between 12 and 3...cuz i was pretty hamemred..not to mention the other thing i did to add to it all...plus music plus good friends and all this weird stuff...the only thing i remember at one time or another i was being mauled on the floor by some person kissing me...i dont know who it was, where it came from and why....!!
Why do i drink? to forget
I forget the majority of the events that happened last night..so i am clearly unable to determine wether it was a good or bad night..
i dont even want to know...im going o move on
J
Friday, September 5
Where do all the nice people hide?
So you kno what i think we need?
More Super Nice Poeple.
For Example. i was traveling on the Number 5 bus last afternoon and the driver was extremely nice. it made me have hope that not everyone is a jerk, cuz a majority of the people here in this world can be jerks and yes i admit even myself can be quite the jerk every now and again. But this Driver mad eit important to make eye contact with every patron and to talk to someone and even Say Thank You and Have A gOod night to every single person who got off at their respectful stop. I was amazied. It has been a while since i have seen such niceness and courtesy.
Even today at the Library the Lady who helped me in looking for a plug in was also very nice. again something iwasnt used to. She again used that eye contact and the open body language i dont see quite often enough. it put a smile on my face and also made me wonder where all these nice people hang out? obviously in the society we live in today everyone is obviously too busy to lend a hand. I try my best but even in my situation i cant be the nicest person in the world, not thaty i dont try.
every chance i get i try to help people out and i want to but its hard in this growing society and in this crazy way nd everything going on and even i myself can hardly keep up.
SO thus is life i wonder where all these nice people hang out adn i want to try and search them out and put a finger on them and leave little comments about them and how nice they are. They deserve the credit for makking my day brighter even if i am 50 dollars short of my "Rent/food" which dosent make my day all that great....
More Super Nice Poeple.
For Example. i was traveling on the Number 5 bus last afternoon and the driver was extremely nice. it made me have hope that not everyone is a jerk, cuz a majority of the people here in this world can be jerks and yes i admit even myself can be quite the jerk every now and again. But this Driver mad eit important to make eye contact with every patron and to talk to someone and even Say Thank You and Have A gOod night to every single person who got off at their respectful stop. I was amazied. It has been a while since i have seen such niceness and courtesy.
Even today at the Library the Lady who helped me in looking for a plug in was also very nice. again something iwasnt used to. She again used that eye contact and the open body language i dont see quite often enough. it put a smile on my face and also made me wonder where all these nice people hang out? obviously in the society we live in today everyone is obviously too busy to lend a hand. I try my best but even in my situation i cant be the nicest person in the world, not thaty i dont try.
every chance i get i try to help people out and i want to but its hard in this growing society and in this crazy way nd everything going on and even i myself can hardly keep up.
SO thus is life i wonder where all these nice people hang out adn i want to try and search them out and put a finger on them and leave little comments about them and how nice they are. They deserve the credit for makking my day brighter even if i am 50 dollars short of my "Rent/food" which dosent make my day all that great....
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