furious,.

the silence is killin me. yet is really isnt silence. its a low humming of machinery as it cranks and cackles in this small space. cant hardly take it anymore. ready to go absolutely crazy. am going crazy. cant actually do the things i supposed to. cant focus. cant find motivation. all the thoughts in my head are louder than ever. i almost cant take it. i need to zen and focus. cant focus. falling asleep. cant even get a cup of coffee. cant do anything paralyzed in a trance of silence a nd noise clashing together. its unbearable. torture toa  soul like me. have nothing to do. cant do it. freaking out. need to focus. aurgh going in circles cant think. cant feel anytmore. people are the last thing i need to see. im freaking annoyed at life about now. you cant take this away from me. i needs it all the time. all the time.  this silence of my thoughts is dkilling me just as much. coz my voices gett ired of each other after a while and simmer down then the humm of the machines just intimidates me savagely. like a mouse in a cage i cant get out i cant do anything. tell me why you are doing this what did i ever do to you.